all my fault

i just cant fucking take it! josh appearently went to go get his hand worked on becuase he broke it hitting something. all my fault. dustin isnt talking to me because of erika. all my fault. dustin and seth are mad at eachother and shit. all my fault. i am now walking down the hallways in total scilence, afraid of what might come out of my mouth. it was my choice, and i made a bad one based on what everyone else said. i am having problems writing this because i am shaking really bad. i cant even look at mike or josh because i am afriad that they might hurt me. i deserve it though. i have got to grow up.