being sent away

my father has finally decided that if I fuck up one more time, no matter what it is, He will be sending me to a foster home. Fucking let Him. What does He think I've been tryign to do for the last 2 1/2 years!? I just can't fucking take it anymore! My boyfriend is depressed and getting worse, and I understand where he is coming from, but I am scared that if He falls too fast too soon there will be NO way that I will ever get Him out. And He knows that I am here for Him and ONLY Him. No one matters more in my life right now, no matter what anyone says. At least I have something to live for now. Before it was hard enough just trying to get through the days without hurting and/or killing myself or someone else. I still have to fight it, but not alone. I am so happy that He is in my life now, He couldn't of shown up at a better time, at least He's there for me too.