everythig else

finally, it has been answered. i know that jordan does not have feelings for me. thats a good thing. i hope that i am over him.
dustin still might be moving to florida with his mom and leaving all of us behind. i dont want that to happen. i am honestly falling for him. not just beucase hes cute, but becuase he is a smart, talented person and knows what he wants out of life. i really hope that one day, maybe not soon, that we can try a relationship. i highly doubt it though. i mean honestly, besides josh, who would want to be with me? i am totaly screwed up and i have no plans for the future. jes, dustin may know me better than even i do, but i dont think that it could ever happen. i would like it to, but i know that it cant. well whatever.
josh and i are totally going to prom together this saturday. i hope that i can go out afterwards, and maybe not coem back;) yeah fucking right! at least i can go, so far. i might not if i dont get my chores done by thursday. thursday is my two months with josh! go me!