what does the future hold?

crying on the inside, not becuase of sadness but becuase of happiness. i have someone waiting for me, somewhere i have never been. i am ready to take on all responsibilities this new life has for me. even though i must wait for some more time, i will be fully ready by then to stay committed.i beileve that one of the reasons why i wasnt true to Josh was because i didnt love him, i have a very high level of compassion and caring for him, but i confused it with love. i am sorry that i did that to him, but he is over now and i am just waiting for a few more months and i will be ready to hold my lover in my arms once again. all that life has for me i am starting to see now, i am glad that i have gone through so much with my heart and soul. i have learned from your mistakes and mine, no matter who you are. i feel as if i am ready to take on the world, but i am still afarid, but that is natural. my future awaits me, goodbye my past, forever and always!