alone

with my mom gone and dustin leaving in a few weeks and losing josh i dont know what to do. i dont even think i want to even have anymore friends. i mean seriously, it isnt their time to go. i might be alittle selfconceded on this, but im not the only one that needs dustin here.
the only person that is keeping here is Brian. in a little bit over a year i will be moving out to Washington to live with him. NO ONE is going to stop me. i dont care if my family doesnt like him or that he has had a rough past, but i am in love with him. i know that i have said that i was in love with josh, but this is serious with Brian. i cant stand not having anyone in my arms and it hurts me.