full moon

saturday didnt go as planned. my dad almost didnt let me go. then on our way back from muskie mountian the radiator gets a baseball sized hole in it. cara freaks out, mike shane and i walk back to her house, at least 2 miles away, and get her dad. not cool. i was supopposed to be home by 11pm and didnt get home until 1.30am. it really sucked. well yeah. josh and i did get to have sex. i have a brusie on my left wrist from the cuffs, one on my back from god knows what, one on my knee, a bunch of little ones on my waist. i have at leaset 100 bug bites all over my body.
jordan has been trying to get me to talk to him and its pissing me off. he is being a messenger for dustin and then on top of it, he threatened josh, AGAIN! what the fuck. he even tries to touch either mike or josh, and i will be the one taking him out. i am sick and tired of his games.
so much has happened and most of it is out of control, i am just scared that i am not going to be able to make up my mind when its time to choose between josh and brian. i am just scared that i will make the wrong choice. mike, if you are reading this, HELP ME!