terror

i am scared to go home i am scared to be touched i cant tell anyone anything becuase they wont believe me there is no proof of what i want to tell them i cant walk down the road or in the halls without the feeling that everyones eyes see everything people trying to help and saying that they will but when i need help the most they run is it that im that scary? is it becuase i refuse to be with certain people or what!? am i not good enough for you or is it beucase you hate me all i need is people to leave me alone but to have those few that wont listen and try to puch through to save me from myself what do i need to do to save myself hide my feelings and deny myself the passion of life? someone has to find me in the dark is all i tell myself nothing seems to be working i wonder if anyone would trully miss me if i was gone.