w/e

GOD! i hate this! i have all this shit in my head, and i dont know what the fuck it is! there are thoughts of suicide, but i dont know why there would be. im becomeing very distant from everyone. i have no fucking clue what the fuck is going on! as usal everything is about drama, but im not home enough to be suffering from drama there. i dont know. i hate this, i try to be in a good mood, but its not working. brian is prolly in jail, he just turned 21 on the 10th. i fucking hatet his feeling! death all the time in my head. nothing i do is making it stop!