today

everyone sits next to me and makes these plans and i sit here acting like there isnt anything wrong. i never get invited to these things. josh and mike and everyone else is going. its really fucking pissing me off. i dont get to do anything that everyone else is invited to. i dont know why and i dont care. this shit is going to happen no matter what. all summer long josh is going to tell me about all these fucking parties and i wont be able to go. they all act like i dont matter and that i dont care whether or not i get invidted. i dont understand why i cant go. there isnt anything wrong that i am going to do. i dont know why no one takes the time to ask. it really pisses me off. but whatever, right? a majority of them are leaving sometime this summer. i cant stand it thought. i have tried to get over people and not take things so seriously, but i just fucking cant! i dont know why people dont like me and i dont want to. even if i dont like you, i try to be nice until a certain point. i have always been there for people, but no one seems to care.